As a child I would wish on a star and dream of how that wish would come true. Later, I heard someone say it is lucky to make a wish when the clock strikes 11:11. So I started making wishes on time, hoping that I had found a way to make my wishes come true. I may have been naïve in my childhood and youth, but I was no different than so many others. We would find the brightest star in the night sky or stay up late till the clock struck 11:11 and make our wishes. The wishes would come in every shape and size. Out of all my wishes I never once remember any of them coming true, yet, I kept wishing.
As a child I also liked to day dream and play make believe. In my world far away I was beautiful, talented, and popular. Don't get me wrong, I was a lucky girl. I grew up in a loving and supportive home. I have been blessed with amazing parents and sister, but I liked escaping into a world of imagination where I was someone different.
If I was completely transparent my adult self is not much different than my child or teen self. As an adult, I have found myself wishing on a few stars or stopping what I'm doing in the midst of a busy day to say a wish as the clock struck 11:11 on my computer screen (maybe even 10:10 or 12:12). As embarrassing as it is for me to admit, I still day dream of a different life where I am beautiful, talented, married, mom and financial secure. But, just as when I was younger my wishes haven't come true and my day dreams depict areas of my life where I sense a lack of fulfillment.
It is shocking to think of all the wasted time spent wishing and playing out scenarios in my life that were never going to come true
because I had magically wished on the right star, waited for the perfect time
or put enough brain power behind my wishes. The Truth is my hope should have never
been placed in such things but in the One who has proven to be faithful.
In my office I have purposefully placed Bible verses to help me remember in Whom
all my Hope is placed. They are verses that challenge me to be disciplined, to keep
me focus on the things of God and to encourage me on those especially
difficult days. I actually have Psalm 37:3-7 in my office in several places.
“Trust in the Lord, and do good; so you will live in the land, and enjoy
security. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your
heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. He will make
your vindication shine like the light, and the justice of your cause like the
noonday. Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him; do not fret over
those who prosper in their way, over those who carry out evil devices.” ~Psalm
Life isn’t easy and certainly doesn’t turn out the way we wish or
day dream it to be. But my hope isn’t in a star, a clock, my own
thoughts/strenghts or any other countless things. My Hope is in the Lord who I
can Trust in, Delight in, Commit everything to and that I can just Rest in. I
love God and my desire is to be faithful to Him.
Happy New Year and lets all stop wishing on a star and start placing our Hope in the Lord!!!