Tuesday, December 30, 2014

New Years Resolutions

In less than 48 hours a new year will begin. I have had this blogger for over three years. A year ago I deleted all previous post, there weren't that many. I posted once in January, 2014, and never stopped again to share my life journey. I find myself reading other blogs and wishing I could be as committed to putting in words my life experiences, spiritual highs/lows, and random thoughts as others. So, I'm faced with a challenge. Shut down the blog and just go on with life OR start blogging regularly. 

I have never been good at keeping New Years Resolutions. In fact, when I have made a resolution I rarely made them public for fear that someone would know that I failed to be successful. So it is as 2014 comes to an end, I'm faced with this challenge. Blog or not to blog? With that challenge comes the idea that my resolution to continue will be made public. LOL I laugh because I don't know if anyone has ever read any of my post so there may not be any real threat of someone reading them now. But to think that it is public is scary. 

There are two other resolutions this year. 1) Health Lifestyle  and 2) Act don't just Think/Talk (Ministry Related). I will plan to expound on these two later on as the new year begins, but for now I make them known to the unknown masses. 

Hebrews 12:11 says "All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness."(NASB) This has been a powerful verse over the last few years of my life. I see my resolutions as a new chapter in this disciplined life that I am seeking to live. There will be times when I'm seeking to achieve my resolution that are going to be tough or uncomfortable, but my prayer is that my resolve will stand strong that in all things I will live a life that produces the "fruit of righteousness". 

Monday, January 6, 2014

Wishes, Day Dreams and the True Hope!

As a child I would wish on a star and dream of how that wish would come true. Later, I heard someone say it is lucky to make a wish when the clock strikes 11:11. So I started making wishes on time, hoping that I had found a way to make my wishes come true. I may have been na├»ve in my childhood and youth, but I was no different than so many others. We would find the brightest star in the night sky or stay up late till the clock struck 11:11 and make our wishes. The wishes would come in every shape and size. Out of all my wishes I never once remember any of them coming true, yet, I kept wishing.

As a child I also liked to day dream and play make believe. In my world far away I was beautiful, talented, and popular. Don't get me wrong, I was a lucky girl. I grew up in a loving and supportive home. I have been blessed with amazing parents and sister, but I liked escaping into a world of imagination where I was someone different.

If I was completely transparent my adult self is not much different than my child or teen self. As an adult, I have found myself wishing on a few stars or stopping what I'm doing in the midst of a busy day to say a wish as the clock struck 11:11 on my computer screen (maybe even 10:10 or 12:12). As embarrassing as it is for me to admit, I still day dream of a different life where I am beautiful, talented, married, mom and financial secure. But, just as when I was younger my wishes haven't come true and my day dreams depict areas of my life where I sense a lack of fulfillment.

It is shocking to think of  all the wasted time spent wishing and playing out scenarios in my life that were never going to come true because I had magically wished on the right star, waited for the perfect time or put enough brain power behind my wishes. The Truth is my hope should have never been placed in such things but in the One who has proven to be faithful.

In my office I have purposefully placed Bible verses to help me remember in Whom all my Hope is placed. They are verses that challenge me to be disciplined, to keep me focus on the things of God and to encourage me on those especially difficult days. I actually have Psalm 37:3-7 in my office in several places.

“Trust in the Lord, and do good; so you will live in the land, and enjoy security. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. He will make your vindication shine like the light, and the justice of your cause like the noonday. Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him; do not fret over those who prosper in their way, over those who carry out evil devices.” ~Psalm 37:3-7 (NRSV)

Life isn’t easy and certainly doesn’t turn out the way we wish or day dream it to be. But my hope isn’t in a star, a clock, my own thoughts/strenghts or any other countless things. My Hope is in the Lord who I can Trust in, Delight in, Commit everything to and that I can just Rest in. I love God and my desire is to be faithful to Him.

Happy New Year and lets all stop wishing on a star and start placing our Hope in the Lord!!!